Let me back up, almost from birth, "A" has had an appetite for paper - she likes chewing on paper towel especially. Although I've been able to get her to suck on a baby blanket over paper towel, she knows the difference and her appetite for it has gone nowhere. When I returned from vacation A had found a new object to set her desires on as I've tried to get her away from her paper towel addiction: baby wipes. I have no idea what it is, but she thinks she's sneaky, that I don't know she's really trying to eat it and not just hold it. First, she rubs her cheeks with it and then her mouth, then when she thinks we aren't looking, she rubs it over her tongue. I don't get it! This two year old will have an absolute meltdown if we don't giver her a wipe to hold or when we eventually take it away.
Today she said she wanted to go outside and blow bubbles, so I took her outside. Pretty soon dozens and dozens of bubbles were surrounding her, it would have made a great picture, but A? She didn't even notice when a bubble was popped by her face or arms because she was so focused on the baby wipe in her hand. I felt frustrated, she was missing it! So many pretty bubbles floating delicately in the air and she was looking at a baby wipe???
Almost immediately I thought about how many times I get so focused on one thing that I miss everything else around me. I do this with the good things and the not so fun things. That baby wipe could represent so much. What are we focusing on so intently that we miss all the bubbles around us? Whenever we're obsessing or focusing on one aspect of our lives, one good thing in our lives, one desire in our lives, we can miss all the other good things. We devalue them, think they're not enough or even curses.
My hope is that I never get so caught up on one gift or hardship that I miss everything else surrounding me. Daily we have the choice, Bubbles? or Baby wipes?