My current thought process on the whole subject is linked to my job situation or rather my LACK of my job situation. I've said before how I've moved 13 times in 5 years but that included college locations. If I look at just California I've moved 7 times in 2 years. For 2 years my life has not been stable. As one who does not thrive on change, this has been a very painful chain of events. Regardless as to where this stems from, I've been thinking about how God is always with me. He doesn't leave me, this means He is always aware of my situation and I can lean on Him or I can demand He do something and fix the situation for me. The latter is what I've tended to do and it always leaves me bitter at God and not resting in His peace. I start to believe things about God that are not true.
I've applied at a Hospital in Santa Cruz and will be applying for a part time admin assistant job in Roseville (the area I just moved from). I can't stand the thought of moving again, and to an area where I don't really want to be at that. I'm conflicted. I need a job, my credit is ruined for the foreseeable future so all I want is a job that pays somewhat decently and that I don't hate. I like where I'm at for the most part, I'm starting to get plugged in at a church I REALLY like and this area is better than where I moved from.
All I can think about is what to do once I have to make a decision. I know Jesus said not to worry about tomorrow but I think it's important to be proactive and think ahead of time about potential situations. The catch is this: seeking God's opinion and direction is vital: in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3)
I keep thinking about how no matter where I end up, I can be sure of two things: God is with me and He isn't going anywhere. (Hebrews 13:5 among others) Second, I'm instructed to love him with everything I am. “ Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’ ; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. ” (Luke 10)
Because of these verses I feel confident that I can choose wherever I want to go, unless of course he instructs me otherwise. Which in that case, I need to devote some time in prayer, because my life has zero direction at this point except for the versus I listed in the paragraph above. I'm learning to want to be where God wants me while remembering that no matter what my circumstances, no matter how many times I move, He is with me. It's a start, and I have peace I'm on the right path. Because after all, What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? (Romans 8)