"Scandal" is a TV show I've added to my list of stories I love. In an early episode of Season 4 a family is trying to get money from a wealthy parent after their children make a video that would affect the reputation of said wealthy parent. Olivia, the shows protagonist, is willing to work with the greedy family to get what they want until they utter these deal breaking words: "We want more."
In one of my favorite sceens out of the 4 season series, Olivia explains in amazing, no uncertain threatening terms that she will now go after them rather than facilitate the arrangement of the money they already agreed upon. The best line Olivia delivers in the scene is this: "You are the worst kinds of people, the ones who already have more than enough- but you want MORE."
The couple has been weighed and found wanting. They are rich but they want...more. No amount of money is enough. They, quite obviously, will never be satisfied. Their identity is how much money is in their bank account - and no figure will ever be high enough.
It's easy to shake our heads, especially since we may have come across people like this couple, and the 1% come to mind, but I think of another couple, one not made up for a TV show but who changed the course of all humanities fate.
Adam and Eve had literally been given everything they needed to survive and could physically see and experience their creator. But everything wasn't enough for the famous first couple. They wanted MORE. I could argue that original sin was pride, and that certainly factors in but an insatiable appetite for more (or dis-satisfaction) was their (and our) downfall.
I used to think that if I were Eve, I would have been much more righteous and chopped of the serpents head. But I'm old enough now to know that if I were Eve, I probably wouldn't have needed any doubt placed by Satan in my mind - I would have come to that desire of wanting more all by myself. I've convinced myself that Jesus' promise of food in my belly and a roof over my head aren't enough. I need satisfaction at all times in my job, fair pay, money to spend endlessly however I please, my bills to be paid off so I can have all of my paycheck to myself...and the list goes on. I need kids to feel like a woman, a house to feel like a grown-up, and a man to know I am loved.
Have we been missing out on God's version of good for us because we're focusing on what our idea of good is? The title of a book I've never read but resonates with me any time I've come across it, screams and pleads with me: "Don't Waste Your Life." The more merciful God is with me the more I see how I've been weighed and found wanting, how rich I am in Christ and in life yet at the end of the day I want...more.
I'm amazed at how many times the following words have come out of my mouth: "I deserve..." I forget that I have already been given much much more than I deserve: an abundance of grace, a Savior who took my place, mercies renewed daily in spite of the same complaints that come off my lips. The lack of trust I have in the Lord to give me what I think I need is silenced when I read Ann Voskamp's words in her amazing book, "One Thousand Gifts."
"If trust must be earned, hasn't God unequivocally earned our trust with the bark on the raw wounds, the thorns pressed into the brow, your name on the cracked lips? How will he not also graciously give us all things He deems best and right? He's already given the incomprehensible. Christ our Crossbeam. The counting of all blessings is ultimately summed up in One."