Friends, most days all I can think about is what I lack. Though I've gotten better at recognizing and thanking God for the daily gifts he gives, it is within my nature to worry. A friend once told me I was a worry worm and he wasn't wrong (he also coined a fun phrase LOL). Thinking I lack what I need or want turns to worry and worry turns to fear. I've begun to see how entitled I am, I think I deserve the things our society tells me I should have by now and naturally I want those things too. I don't think it's wrong to want what I see others have but when I focus on what I don't have I start to think God is holding out on me.
When I read "I lack nothing," something clicked in my mind. Because the Lord is my shepherd I have everything. This simple and difficult truth is what I must cling to. Worrying is not helping me, it is hurting me. It causes me to ignore a fundamental truth about God- that because I have Him, I have everything. I lack nothing.
When my focus goes back to Him, it is incredibly easy to redirect my thoughts from what I lack to seeing I lack nothing. The beauty of the gospel, for me anyway, is the Hope I have in spite of my circumstances. True, I may still be working on clinging and believing this particular truth of my faith, but it is true even when I don't believe it. God's consistency is always there. Grace meets me in my entitled bitter moments and guides me back to the time and tested revelation that "God is who He says He is and God can do what He says He can do (Beth Moore)." When I box God into who and what I think he should be/do in my life I am missing what He is teaching me in this moment. Only so much is within my control but being open to what He is communicating to me is always within my control no matter my current circumstances.
I have so many journal entries and blog posts about the same old struggles (trusting God with my life) I feel like a broken record. So here I am, smack dab in the middle of the perfect opportunity to practice what He has been teaching me and I think I'm starting to. It is a relief to reach out in trust in a moment when I need to instead of realizing I should have in hindsight.
I am so thankful for a God who never grows weary of my bad habits. May I have the grace to extend that to others and may they see God in that action. Happy Christmas week everyone! I hope you have moments where you feel blessed by the good news that was brought for all people. We may celebrate his birth on the wrong day but His light and love still bring me a thrill of hope every Christmas season. Peace and love to you friends <3