Lessons Learned, ok wait, scratch that. LESSONS LEARNING
Being negative only contributes to the problem, it doesn't fix it.
My struggle has been feeling justified to focus on the negative/feel sorry for myself when I look at the "bad." Towards the end of 2013 God started showing me how focusing on the Him and the good is what gets you through the not so fun times.
Relying on money for your security is a wonderful opportunity for God to laugh and say, "Yeah it's about time I worked on that with you." (pouty face inserted here).
As of today I have about 20 bucks til I'm completely broke. And I'm FREAKING out. But Jesus didn't say we'd have money, he said we'd have shelter and food. Currently I have both, so it will be fun (?) to see God provide food when it's all gone!
Watching Netflix 24/7 for 5 months is a waste of time.
Sure, I found "The Killing" as a result of Netflix, and now I'm even further aware of how much more creative other people are than me, but all it did was contribute to the negativity and prevent me from working on my novel and other ideas.
God is working on me like never before
Somewhere in between all the negativity and Netflix watching, God was merciful enough to start using the Holy Spirit in my life to make much needed connections and insights. I've also had a passion for the Word come into my heart, which is saying something since it's always been a struggle to continually read it.
I love being single!
Ok, this is a little deceptive because the above statement implies I've been in relationships, which in fact, I've never actually been in one…. BUT I have always desired to be in one. I've finally come to a place where I don't feel sad about being alone and I actually think my life might be better without one :)
Highlights from 2013
I lived with my brother in Salinas for the first 5 months of the year
I got to go to Hawaii!
I lived with my parents in Northern California
My friend Laura rescued me from living with my parents by taking me into her home in Santa Cruz
I came up with an idea for a T.V. show and other creative ideas
My other friend Laura drove 8 hours to be with me for Thanksgiving!
ONE LAST FINAL THOUGHT
The book "No perfect people allowed" said something really profound and it basically describes what the Holy Spirit has been telling me these last few months : "You succeed wildly, make tons of money, and prove to the world how smart you are. Then you die and find out there really is a God who loved you and had a bigger purpose for your life than just living for you. Imagine how you'll feel if you missed it because you were too busy doing what you thought was best for you- that wouldn't be too smart would it? To be so smart and yet miss the whole purpose for your existence?" Jesus sums it up nicely in Matthew: "What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world yet forfeit their soul?"
God's intention isn't to rob us from fun or trick us into a boring life, he's trying to give us His best- which is the only goal in life worth pursuing! My prayer for you all, no matter where you are with Jesus is that you find Him in everything in 2014!
Here's to the Best year yet!
My verse for 2014: "I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Phillipians 3:14