I think there's a deeper meaning to my particular resolution, I think I'm aware I need to work on my flexibility/openness to life. The older I get the more sure I am of what I like. Maybe if I can open myself up to foods I don't like it can serve as a reminder to be open to other experiences. On the other hand, I wonder if by choosing something a little more on the easier side of resolutions I am continuing my tendencies of running away from anything I deem too hard. Who knew resolutions could be so telling?
2018 is off to a good start though, I rang in the New Year in a different state with an old friend, vacationed in Hawaii with my family and started a class at a community college that puts me on track with starting at a new grad school this Fall. I'm a bit apprehensive of the class, it's Biological Psychology so the science of the subject has my mindset firmly in the "I can't" camp. I know my limits and friends, this is one of them. Science may as well be taught to me in a foreign language for as much as I understand it. My brain feels like it's going to explode and my professor, while super generous and kind with his time and with our (ok my) questions throughout the class, he's one of those people who likes to give the latin root/history of the scientific jargon. So maybe my brain feeling like it's going to explode is related to information overload.
I started out 2018 with firm goals. A. Find Job. B. Get connected with friends in the Sacramento area now that I'm living here for the 3rd time. C. Work on writing again now that I have endless amounts of time. D. Blog more and with more purpose. E. Learn how to not waste time, you have already succeeded in this area: GIVE OTHER OPTIONS A GO LEXI!!! F. Find a Church that doesn't think Trump is the coming of God's Kingdom (Jesus, literally take the wheel because I can't anymore with your Church).
Pretty lofty right? Maybe the above list is why I went with "eating foods I usually say no to," for my New Years Resolution. So how am I doing, a mere 2 days from February 1st? I know I'm my harshest critic and all I can typically focus on is what I haven't done rather than what I have but I was travelling almost the entire month and I'm not one of those people who tries to incorporate their normal routine