First off, I'm super impressed with your blog. I love the layout, the topics you choose and especially your style of writing. Reading it was fun and it made me realize just how awesome blogs are. You can literally get full insight into someone's daily life, making the reader feel like they're having a conversation with you. Sure, it's one-ended but because of the personal insight, the reader may as well be a dear friend with excellent listening skills. I view blogging as a way to process my thoughts. My blog is like a journal, or a good friend who's always there to listen lol.
At your wedding I was flooded with memories of how life was when we saw each other on a regular basis. I saw a grown up where once a a teenager was. I was saddened that I no longer knew the girl I was once close to. While it's normal to become distant because of major life changes like moving to Europe as in my case or move away to school (as in both of our cases) losing contact with people I am friends with always makes me sad. I don't like it when things end or come to a temporary halt. I wonder why I seem to be the only one who notices or seems to care (in this case I'm merely reflecting, not trying to be passive aggressive lol).
While everyone shoulders responsibility for changes in friendship, circumstances like location are usually the culprit. We can't take everyone we know with us when we move on. Thankfully we have the hope of Heaven, but I like to think that on Earth we should take care of our friendships you know?
When I read your blog I felt a huge connection with you because we're both in the same boat. We're new to the places we're currently living, we're a little alone though surrounded by people, and the biggest: we're both holders of B.A's in journalism but don't have jobs. Even more than that though, we're both writers. We both need and crave a creative outlet. Do you ever wish you could be scientific instead? While I wouldn't trade my creativity preferences for anything, it isn't the most stable or safe personality to have. Very few people make it in the creative industry but we have no other option. For us, stories are what drive us. I hope you feel a little less alone by knowing you aren't the only one who longs for a dream that feels like it might not ever come true.
I don't want you to give up though, God gave you this interest and skill for a reason. He doesn't assign us our gifts without a plan to implement them. We can only do what we can on our end. I may never be a published author but I won't ever be one if I don't write my stories down and practice my writing. Right now you're in a position of transition and uncertainty but it won't always be that way, I promise. If only I could remember that when times are hard like they are now.
One big thing that helps me get through my tough times is reaching out to friends and connecting with them. Also, Talking with people who understand my situation and who are in the same boat as me makes the journey of uncertainty a little more bearable. Remembering that it isn't just me that is having a rough time makes me feel like we're all in this together, though the circumstances may not be identical. I pray your situation turns out exactly the way you wish it to because what you want is not bad or asking too much. But above all of your desires I hope you can learn what God can teach you through this time because then you can face anything. Circumstances always change, but God's ability to work in your life no matter what they are, doesn't change.
Wish I could watch Sons of Anarchy with you! :)
p.s. a list of things to hope for/look forward to (send me yours amanda;)
a. cold weather, so cal has been way too hot, though I think it's finally calming down b. thanksgiving c. the Christmas season and all that comes along with it: music, decorations etc. d. reading the edited version of my book so far e. finishing my book f. things changing financially :) g. watching more episodes of sons of anarchy and breaking bad