Speaking of credit card debt, I've had issues with self-control for as long as I can remember... closely followed by delaying self-gratification which is the sibling of self-control. And this is probably why it's a great time to be reading "7" by Jen Hatmaker. "7" is a book that has readers partake in a kind of fast. It covers 7 areas for 7 months. The topics include media, food, clothes and possessions among others. The first month covers food so right out of the gate I know I'm going to struggle. However, it will force me to look at my self-control issues.
My guess is that the month involving media will be the most difficult for me; it's kind of all I have right now. My outlook on life clearly needs to change too :) This has been the most difficult time in my life (although I'm positive this isn't the first time I've made this claim) and thinking about where I'm at in life has caused me to face a big truth: I don't trust God. I came to this realization a few weeks ago, while lying awake late at night thinking about how awful it is to be unemployed for 5 months. I couldn't figure out why it is that for all of my Christian faith I've struggled with my faith when hard things happen. I've read about people who have unwavering faith that God will provide and I've seen friends and family hold onto their faith in their dark times but I'm sorry to say that isn't me. I talk a big talk and everything I say I truly mean but when it comes to putting a lot of it into practice, I may as well be one who doesn't know God. This has also opened my eyes to the fact that I am completely reliant on God's grace, which covers everything: even my lack of faith in God.
Hopefully this book will open up a doorway of communication from the Holy Sprit to me as I make some changes over the next 7 months. Because in the end, it's the Holy Spirit's job to change me and not mine.
So that's been my life, I hope that yours has been filled with a lot of blessings and that I get to hear about them soon!