Writing a book is hard. I wish I wanted this story to just be a screenplay because I could have brought out some Cook's champaign (nothing but the best :) to celebrate the completion of my third screenplay. But something is keeping me tied to this being a novel and I think it's the Lord mixed with I want it to be a book first. And even though I'm dying to start on my second novel, I know I need to finish this one first.
While reading for my life-coaching class (I'm a little behind) I came across this section and I had it on my heart to share with you because I know you have dreams too. Maybe you've never told anyone about them, or maybe you have been afraid, or lazy like me, or lack motivation, or have told yourself that what you want is unattainable. What I've discovered in writing my book is really important: I've realized it matters very little if it gets published. I'll know that I'm a novelist whether anyone ever calls me that. I'll know I did everything I could on my end and I achieved my dream just by writing it and completing it. Living up to my full potential doesn't always mean getting the whole package, it means that I am capable of pursuing my passion (writing) and I believe in myself whether anyone else does or not.
I believe that God gave me a talent and I'm putting it into practice, I trust that HE knows what is best, that He has not forgotten about me and that He will change my heart to be what He wants it to be no matter what my outcome in this field is. Pursuing what you want is half the battle, or at least that's been true in my case. I won't let fear hold me back or endless rejections of my writing. I know I'm good at telling stories and I know I have just as good of a shot at this as anyone else. I'm only responsible for my part.
So here is the section I wanted to share from the book I'm reading for my class:
"Life is not a smooth journey. Progress is hindered by obstacles, roadblocks, setbacks, and disappointments. Like runners in a marathon, we can be hindered by hurdles that trip us up, slow us down, drain our energy, or force us to give up our goals and abandon the race. These obstacles are not always in the environments where we live or work. Many of our biggest obstacles reside in our minds as self-defeating thoughts and self-talk.... These internal progress stoppers, sometimes called our mental gremlins, can be immobilizing, like huge mountains in the way of progress but mountains that few outsiders see because we hide them in our brains." (Christian Coaching, Gary Collins)
First off, I love the start of this paragraph. It is incredibly validating. We may think life has gone off-kilter when something doesn't work out the way we think it should or want it to, but the truth is life guarantees rough patches. Usually what we want does not get handed to us, we have to work, hard. The blessing in the midst of our struggles is to have the people in our lives who love us, to be there for us. We have to allow others to encourage us and be our friend and cheerleader to help keep us going. There is almost nothing worse than feeling discouraged. I strongly believe that God gives us talents and passions to give Him glory and to give us purpose. When we pursue those areas we are both honoring Him and living with purpose.
Second, when I read that it's our minds that can be what hold us back, it resonated with me for two reasons. 1. I know my thoughts are a big obstacle for me and 2. I was thinking about how much I care for my friends and I got sad at the thought that some of you may be struggling with self-doubt and or discouragement. If you are struggling with the thoughts in your mind, then you probably feel extremely alone. Your friends may know somethings up and they may even know to an extent what's going on. But when those poisonous thoughts run through our brain, our friends aren't there to replace those lies with truth. You are good enough, you can do it, your worth lies not in material success but with your character in your pursuit of your dreams. Staying true to yourself, not losing focus, knowing no matter what the outcome you are loved and appreciated because of your existence and what you do for others: not in how much money you make or what you do for a living. Who you are is not your job. But your attitude will affect the outcome, and how you get through your pursuit, trust me on all of this , I know what I'm talking about from experience :)
My encouragement to you is to figure out what you want to do with your life and pursue it. Chances are that what you're passionate about you're good at it too because God has given you that talent. God says not to be dismayed "..For I am your God." Remember that, at the end of the day God is your biggest cheerleader and the One who gave you your talents and passions. James 1:5-6 - If you need wisdom -- if you want to know what God wants you to do -- ask him, and he will gladly tell you. He will not resent your asking. But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to answer, for a doubtful mind is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. (NLT)